Today I feel like being quite honest on how I am feeling this night.
*** Disclamor*** I don't feel like this always but on this day, like many others who have walked in the same shoes as I, I am feeling D
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So let me tell you why, I MISS MY FAMILY.
We are nearing the 3 year mark that we have a been a way from our family, and quite frankly I am ready for a little mother & daughter time, father & daughter time, sister & sister time, brother & sister time, Aunt & nephew time, Mother-in-law & daughter time, Father-in-law & daughter time, pretty much everybody in my family & Chelsea time..... If you get my drift, and I mean longer than a week as well...
And, maybe you think.. Don't complain Chelsea, you signed up to be a missionary.. And don't complain Chelsea a lot of missionaries have life a lot harder then you, you are just in Mexico..And yes, that is all true, but I miss my family a lot, and Mexico feels a lot farther away from my simple Iowa. And seriously I miss my family and simple Iowa and just being with family on a normal day, uneventful and not some grand occasion..
But, the truth is yes, I am a Missionary. And yes, we sort of signed up to do it, but also we, as in, ANdy and I gave our hearts and lives to God, we said whatever you want for us..And we truly believe for right now in our lives this is what HE want for us.. I have battled through in my head, why ME?? Why was I called to LEAVE my family, when GOD knows how much I LOVE them and really just want to be with them..
Why wasn't the person Called who hates there family, or the one who doesn't mind being away from there family??? Why ME?
Well, i have come to the conclusion that GOD's call on peoples lives is not a cattle call, and that deep deep down inside of me, I was made to do this, even if it is hard and sad. It is the cross I carry..and that is not even a good analogy, because it may feel like a cross some days, but will never compare to the Cross of Christ.
And most days I am glad that I am here, and I see life as a blessing. I am blessed beyond belief with a Handsome little boy who is Healthy and Smart and super LOVING..
I am blessed with a great Husband who loves me when I am difficle (difficult).
I have a GREAT family, who comes and sees us and loves on us, to heal the wounds of being far away..
I have a great Missionary Family here, who love Andy and I and believe in us...
I actually think writing this blog so far has been theraputic.. Maybe this is why people journal???
Now, since I have lived out of the country for the last 3 years let me tell you a couple things I am excited to be THANKFUL for in the next couple of months, when we come back home to Iowa... Maybe this is the Positive spin on complaining..HA HA, or a way to help all of you out there to learn to be thankful for all you have..
And these are things that God has taught me you can live with out.. And that truly is a good lesson, we all should learn.
Item 1. AIR CONDITIONING, not much more I need to say about this.. Just be grateful you have it, and know that many live without, and may be a little sweaty and stinky...
2. A DISH WASHER,, handwashing bottles is not the greatest, but I do have water and a sink,
so I am grateful.
3. CARPET, poor Henry has little calluses on his knees from crawling on pure tile, we have rugs, but obviously they can't be everywhere:(
4. Water that comes out of the shower head like NORMAL, ours has been on the fritz since we moved here.. I have learned that just having water is a blessing, but when you are paying to have a good shower that is more than a drizzle, then it gets a little annoying.
5. Space between you and your neighbor, don't take it for granted!
6. The enjoyment of not being the MINORITY, just remember the next time you Stare at someone who looks different, know that they feel your eyes, and are probably feeling a little out of place.
7. The pleasure of conversing in your native tongue, don't take it for granted.. Because it truly is one of life's pleasures being able to say exactly what you want.
8. Pudding, any flavor will do.. Pudding all together they do not sell here in Mexico.. Why you ask? I haven't a clue, I thought pudding was a world wide yummy dessert, but I guess not.
9. Traffic, I say this hoping you don't live in New York City or Las Angeles or somewhere like this. I am from Des Moines, Iowa, and had only known this kind of traffic before we left the country..And boy am I ready for people to follow the rules and there to just be normal traffic..
10. Lastly is your FAMILY, I know a lot of families have issues, but what is new. Families have had issues since the FIRST Family.. And mine is certainly in that mix, but due to us being gone for the last 3 years, I take family time as a SERIOUS PRIORITY.. I plan on planting flowers with my mother next spring, and going out for coffee with my sissy's-in-law as much as I can..
I plan on going on 1000 dates with my husband and just DROPPING Henry off at each of his Grandma's and Grandpa's Houses and smiling as I wave good-bye..
I plan on taking some sort of cake class with my sister and some sort of exercise class to balance out the cake class as well.. :)
I plan on hanging out in Newton, Ia.. Clearlake, Ia... Altoona, Ia.. And just chatting with my sweet grandmas and grandpa.
I plan on going to Farmers Markets with my Parents on Saturdays, going to I-Cubs games with my family.
I plan on going to play groups with my high school friends who also have babies.
I plan on taking a sibling dinner with my sister and brother every Month.
I plan on doing lots, and I am thankful that God has taught me that each and every moment with your family is precious and few!